Evlayn Day 6

Evlayn is now 6 days old and I can't believe that she has only been in our lives for such a small time. Poor little thing, she has spent her first week in the Special Care Unit. It is amazing how far she has come and how small and perfect she is. The newest update is that she is a great little breastfeeder! She has gone from taking in 4ccs to 38 ccs in 48 hours which has shocked everyone. Evlayn has been on and off oxygen but no longer has an IV.

I am so in love with my little girl. She has tiny feet with really long toes, fuzzy soft brown hair and loves to suck on her pacifier.

It really has been a week of ups and downs (I will blame it on the hormones). I am overjoyed that she is here and will have a full recovery, yet I wish she wouldn't have to go through any of this. I am enjoying my special one on one time with her, yet wish I had my family around me to enjoy her as well. I am missing my sweet Beckham, just the little things...the way he says u-go(hugo) in a really deep voice, gives sloppy kisses and his adorable chuckle. I miss rocking him to sleep and kissing his head and singing funny songs to entertain him.

God has been revealing so much to me as I have been seeking Him. As I was praying for Evalyn I asked God to protect me and to show me that she would be alright. I then waited and God showed me Evalyn laying on her tummy with a wing around her. There was stuff falling on the feathers and making it dirty but it couldn't get to her. She is protected by the Almighty, the Creator of the Universe and the Loving Father that holds His children.

Later that night when I woke up to pump (yes ladies every 3 hours...I am sure you can relate) I would pray verses over Evalyn and felt such a peace about her. Then I would go back to sleep and have horrible dreams. Probably every horrible thing that could happen to me. Shooting pains in my incision would wake me up and then the horrible dreams would start again. I really felt that I was being spiritually attacked because of my prayers for Evalyn.

When I told Dirk about my dreams he told me the next night that there are 2 wings. One is covering Evalyn and one is covering me. God is so good and I have such a peace that under the wings of my savior I will be safe.